Returning to work was emotionally and physically challenging. Trying to function normally in a professional role seems like a huge chore to be honest. I find myself with less than ideal amounts of compassion for my patients which is a problem since that's a huge part of my job. I guess I am just completely distracted by my own situation right now. Probably the textbook definition of self-centered huh?
Physically, this process has been much more challenging than I anticipated. I thought a couple Motrin here and there would get me through just fine. However, Tuesday night I ended up in the emergency room because the cramping and pain was so severe I couldn't get it under control with OTC meds. All I have to say is God bless narcotics. I spent the next day laying low and napping under "the influence". I was able to return to work today and tolerated my 1/2 day schedule pretty well. I am hoping that the pain continues to subside; the quicker the better. I am looking forward to the weekend and a visit from a couple of friends/former colleagues who I love and miss having as part of my life. Girl talk is always good for the soul, right?
When the week is rough, emotions are raw, and pain is rearing it's ugly head, I hang on tight to the goodness and compassion of our God.
Kendra
2 comments:
I've just been reading the last few entries with tears in my eyes for you and your family. I'm am thinking and praying for you all. Thank you for sharing this journey with us, God bless you.
Hey - you GET to be self centered. It's the way that we heal, both physically, emotionally and spiritually. It's the way our bodies focus on sending germ fighters to kick butt, blood to the site of a wound and scabs to protect the healing. You are SUPPOSED to be self centered right now. Focus on your self and healing in everyway possible. You have to go through this step to get to the next step. In fact, I might need to read and listen to this too... maybe we all do.
I love you and am so proud of your strength and faith.
T.
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