today was the start of a new week. thankfully. We are still grieving the loss of our pregnancy but are starting to see a light at the end of what has felt like a very dark, very long tunnel. I still feel like I am walking around with a ball of emotion in my throat just waiting to burst out with any mention or thought of babies, pregnancy, etc. Yesterday was Mother's Day and I have to admit I took the easy way out. We didn't go to our church because, quite frankly, I wanted to avoid the emotional torture. The thought of hearing about the wonder and blessing of motherhood just made me want to crawl into my shell until the day had past. We instead chose to go spend the night with my parents with plans to attend church with them - less people that we have personal connections to so less risk of breaking down. However, I woke up Sunday not feeling that great so we decided to just roll over, pull the covers up, and sleep in. It was gray and rainy and my disposition was equally so. On a positive note, I was able to spend some time with my mother and both grandmothers, all of whom have provided me with great examples of motherhood. I can only hope and pray that by next Mother's Day I am enjoying experiencing the day in a whole new way.
Hanging on to God's goodness during a time when very few things seem good, Kendra
A walk in the rain.....life is kind of like that isn't it? Sometimes a walk in the rain is cold and uncomfortable and sometimes a walk in the rain is ultimately refreshing. The bottom line is a walk in the rain, just like life, is what you make of it. And therein, I suppose, lies the challenge. To take your walk pleasing to God and a blessing to those who are walking in the rain with you.
Kendra
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