The Next Step....

Well, it seems like just yesterday that we started our injections preparing for invitro (and in actuality in was only 9 days ago) but this week we take the next step. We go for an ultrasound, probably Tuesday, of my ovaries to see that they are "quiet". Essentially, the doctors want them shut down so they can stimulate them with drugs and know exactly what they are doing and when. The next step is starting two more injectible drug (grand total three per day!) and having an ultrasound every few days until it shows I am ready to ovulate. Thankfully the needles are still tiny for now. Hard to not know what's going to happen day to day. I heard it said once that following God is like walking on lily pads. All we have to do is have the courage to take the next step and God will put the lilypad under our foot. We don't have to worry about getting all the way across the water, only about taking that next step. Easy to say, sometimes tricky to do.
My blogaholic sister asked me if she could share our story on her blog and link it to mine so for anyone who is reading this out of curiosity, maybe I should back up a bit. Here's the short version. Dan and I got married in Dec '05 and pretty much started trying to have a baby right away. After all we are both in our thirties (me mid, he late) and time's a wastin' if ya know what I mean. We tried for a year (tempurature charts, timed sex, blah, blah) with no success. So, off to my gynecologist we went to discuss this. She offered a few suggestions but also ran some tests to rule out causes for our trouble. A few days later she called to tell us that

"we would require quite aggressive fertility treatments to become pregnant".

I'll never forget those words. We were heartbroken in the way that leaves you lying on the bed together sobbing, not understanding and not sure what to do. She suggested we see a specialist about IVF. My college roommate had worked for such a doctor years ago so I called her to chat. She told me about this doctor and how wonderful of a human being he was and that he was a Christian man with very high ethical standards. As you can imagine, someone in the infertility world with shady ethics could be on a slippery slope of playing God. We went to see him first in March of 2007 and were told that we were perfect candidates for successful IVF. At that time though, there was something that held us back from committing; something that we couldn't put our finger on but was there in both of us. I now believe this was the Holy Spirit telling us to wait. Over the next year we thought and prayed and saved and prayed and dreamed and saved and prayed and hoped and prayed and saved...... Early this year we both felt a sense of peace that God had directed us to this opportunity to have a baby. We met with the doc again in January to get the ball rolling and here we are....taking one step in time and believing that what we have chosen is pleasing to God and ultimately will be for His Glory.
Pregnant, not pregnant, or somewhere on the path between the two, I know my God is good ALL THE TIME.

Kendra