Freaked Out!

Tonight something very disturbing happened to me. I came home from work, sat down to a great dinner my wonderful hubby had ready, changed my clothes and rushed out the door to my aerobics class that runs from 6-7:30. All was going as usual when in the middle of our strength training segment (around 7:15) it occured to me that I had forgotten to take my injection! I immediately ran out of there and started for home. On the way I frantically called my husband sobbing to tell him I had forgotten it. My reaction startled me. I was almost instantly sick to my stomach, sobbing, hyperventilating, and shaking. I made it home and took the injection within the suggested time frame (just later than we had been doing it) and all appeared to be well. However, it was after that when I really started to cry. To think that I could have forgotten something so critical to our success really shook me. I would never forgive myself if I screwed this up. After a while I realized I needed to knock off the what-ifs or I would go insane and that seemed to calm me some. My husband was awesome at trying to calm me, having everything ready when I got home, and just hoding me and letting me get all the tears out. I think it has finally sunk in what an emotional roller coaster we are on, and truthfully we are probably just climbing the first hill. I am convinced that it will be worth it though.
Tomorrow we have our first of many ultrasounds over the next two weeks. I'm excited to be moving along in the process. Update to follow :)

When I'm an emotional wreck, ESPECIALLY when I'm an emotional wreck, I rest in knowing that our God is good all the time.

Kendra