48 Hours

Haven't posted in a few days because I went back to work and I guess just got busy with normal life. Realized just now that 48 hours from now we will know if we are pregnant. (!) Frankly today I've been kind a mess emotionally with the weight of the impending news. Trying to prepare for praising God for answered prayers and realization of our dreams of a family and (this is harder) also preparing to praising God even if He decides to delay our desire to be parents. Tears either way I'm certain given that I'm a crier at the drop of a hat anyway so this situation is a no-brainer for a river. We sang a song in church today that we sing often called Bleesed Be Your Name but today the words were screaming off the screen and I could barely sing for the lump in my throat. Here are the words:
(not sure who to give credit - sung by the Newsboys and others I'm sure)

Blessed be Your name
In the land that is plentiful Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name
And blessed be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be your name
CHORUS:
Every blessing You pour out I'll
Turn back to praise
And when the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's "all as it should be"
Blessed be You name
And blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

My desire is that whether He gives or chooses not to right now, we will be able to be faithful and praise the glorious Name of the Lord. I'm not kidding myself that it will be easy if this doesn't turn out how we'd like but God never promised an easy road.

God is Good

all the time,

even during an emotional roller coaster ride.

Kendra